Jan 9, 2013

To My Mom

"here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
"
                                                    -ee cummings

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My mother passed away just after Christmas.

She bravely battled an aggressive form of lymphoma for 15 months. I am sad and I am grieving, we were very close. She was a truly amazing woman, friend and mother. I miss her so much.

I don't usually post a lot about personal issues here, but her passing has effected me in so many ways. Right now it's hard enough just to get back to a regular routine. Be a good mom, take care of my family, keep the house from falling apart and go to work every day. Honestly I feel a little lost. I'm going to be sporadic in my posting again for a while. I need to just remember to breathe and find my way back right now.