I’m finally ready to come back to this space. For a while I was just too sad, too lost and it was too hard. How can I share our home and life when it’s full of sadness? I didn't want to spread the gloom around. First I had to let a little sunshine back in, figure out which way was up, and learn how to breathe again.
For the past month I’ve been regrouping. Giving myself time to be sad. Spending quality time with the baby and our family. Catching up with extended family and friends. Actually reading the book for book club. Reorganizing Oliver’s closet. Reorganizing my closet. Watching movies I’ve been meaning to watch. Figuring out what I’d like to accomplish this year. Going into NYC for restaurant week. Trying to just get back out into the world again and find some semblance of normal. Or at least a new normal.
Baby steps. I have good days and sad. It’s not easy. But I’ve missed this space - I'm glad to be back.